I was really happy today, going out for a movie treat with him, dinner, sending me home and stuff. These past few days, I've been talking to him a lot, day and night. Which is good definitely cause it reminded me of the old times.



But when I came home and saw this, I broke down into tears and cried my heart out. And it kept me thinking till now, why did he even bother in the first place ? All these years of waiting and holding on to someone who seriously don't deserve it at all. I am so scared, very scared if one day I'll end up disappointing him and hurt him again like I did the last time. Why can't I bring myself to just have that slightest feelings ? Why God, why ?! Still finding the reason to why I just can't seem to. But what if I can never open my heart again ? Then all the waiting, and hope it's all for nothing ? Someone, anyone just tell me what am I suppose to do now ? I can't take this anymore :'(