Great. What have I done ? Omg. Really. I've gotten myself into a mess. Fuck. Yesterday was bad enough. What was I thinking when I did that ? What was he thinking ? Never felt so bad before. Don't even know why I felt bad about the entire thing. Think I just made it worst today. I shouldn't have done it in the first place. Oh God, save me from this.

I really miss the beach. The peace and the calmness it gives. I wish I could go there like later or tomorrow or something like that. Maybe I should.

I'll risk everything.