Just when I thought I could be happy for a moment yesterday, my life decided to take its toll on me this morning. The one and only laptop I could depend on for FYP, just died on me. Not crashed or anything like that. Died on me, for good. My friends and I tried every way to recover it, but to no avail. My hardwork for the past few years, and everything else I need to submit for FYP are all inside and nowhere else. Now, everything's gone. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. Feels like I should just give up on it. Stop. Things has been pretty rough in school, but I endured them all this time. But this....this is like the limit. I'm at my lowest point right now. Worst part, I can't even cry. I ran out of tears.

I wish I could talk to Biskot right now. But he's happily sleeping away. Yes, I came back home cause I don't know where else to go already. I don't know if I should move even, and go to Acer right now. I don't know if they can actually bring my laptop back to life. I can't think straight. All I feel like doing now is to just stone away, sit at home and go to the mosque later and pray. Reflect upon everything I've done for the past years and most importantly, ask for forgiveness. Maybe I really do deserve this. I can't believe this is happening. I just wanna shut myself. Forever.