I feel horrible. I look horrible. I sound horrible. Outside or even at home. Feels like there's too much going on. Work's been draining me. Nothing's done yet and next week is the presentation. Meeting Val tomorrow for Dancework training, but choreo's not done yet. Haven't been running lately. Worse of all, I haven't been talking to anyone lately. I'm not there for my friends, when they're probably having a tougher time than I do right now. When they probably need me more than anything else. How horrible all of that sounds. Just thinking about it makes me feel worse. I don't know how I got myself into this mess. The thing is I can't even be there for myself. Nothing to make me feel better. I have only been talking to myself instead. And sometimes I feel like I should cry to let it all out but then I can't bring myself to do it anymore. Truth is, I feel like I haven't been myself lately. I hope it'll all be over soon.

I hope you all know, how sorry I am. And I hope things will get better for you. I really hope you're okay.