Whenever things like this happens, it seriously make me want to change, to a bad person. Pisses me off. No, wrong. More of I'm upset. Why is it so hard? To ask a very small favour in return. Just 1 minute of your time, is it too much to ask for? You know, I'm not boasting or showing off or anything but I always think of them first wherever I go. Never forget to buy extra food/stuff home just to make everybody happy. I don't care how much I spend on my love ones, even if I end up being bankrupt myself. I don't care. And I'll always try my best to be there for everybody, to not make them angry or worried because of me. I ask for just 1 minute, and it is so damn fucking hard. Okay, it may look like I'm fussing up over nothing. But I am because I'm just very upset. The people that I love the most, can't even help me out with something simple for just 1 minute? I hate how this makes me cry so fucking bad everytime it happens. And worse, I hate how much I always give in. I just let it go and let it be in the end. I don't vent my anger and throw tantrums, smash everything I see around the house, and punch cupboards and walls like I used to. I hold back. Or maybe I should be that person again. That fucked up person so people won't ask or expect anything much from me anymore. Really want to care less now. Can't stand this kind of thing cause it feels like noone even cares. Gosh, I hate crying because of this shit.

What a way to start off my 2013. Bravo.