I knew it. Happiness really isn't forever. Hoping I was spending my time outside on a Saturday instead of sitting at home listening to my brother and my parents talk like they know everything. Damn fucked up. I really cannot stand anymore of this bullshit. And I'm venting out my anger and rant it all here because I really don't want to fight with them or raise my voice. I'm tired of doing those. Seriously. Cannot. Anymore. When I don't have any decisions made, everybody kept asking. And when I spare a thought for everyone, already made my decisions, nobody fucking agrees and just bullshit around like they think they know it's the best for me. They don't even want to spare a thought for me. Great. Finally cried my heart out today, after so long. On a freaking Saturday when I thought I can just chill out and calm my mind. Now I seriously wish I won't come back here once I'm in Australia. I'd rather go missing and hope I can just stay there. I don't want to face this cruel reality. Really cannot take it. I think I know exactly what to do now.

And yes I agree. I'm the perfect bad example now. To both of my sisters.