Feels so good after a relaxing cold shower. I smell nice now. Felt the stress and pressure today during training. Its like if one person starts to feel negative...it spreads like wildfire. And then we'll all end up going home feeling like total crap shit. I know how Jia is super worried about everything. Especially since she's the leader. And basically everyone else even when they don't say it. Cause it's just written in everybody's faces and the feeling they gave me at the end of the day. I kinda hate that actually. But we're a team after all. So we'll share this burden together and just help each other get rid of all those negativity. Mostly anxiety. Cause we're still unprepared. I know. We're not confident about the item. Maybe not yet. Though it's completed, it feels unfinished somehow. Like as if we're missing out on something very important. I don't know. Maybe we just need to have more faith. Trust one another and yeah just..believe that it'll be okay.

Crap. Another thing to add to my list of problems and worries. Packing of my luggage, again. For Sunday morning and its frigging early so that means I won't have enough time to pack even after my competition. Super last minute and I can't afford to miss out anything important since I'll be away for a while. Great. One thing after another.